It goes like this:

PDR: I think it would be best for me if I quit my job.
PDR: That sounds like a good idea.
PDR: Yeah.
PDR: Okay, but then what are you going to do?
PDR: I don’t know. I guess I could give school another shot. Seems like everybody thinks I should.
PDR: Right, right. Expensive, though.
PDR: I’ll get a student loan.
PDR: Okay, but I still hear that those aren’t really enough to go on.
PDR: Well, some kind of part-time job to supplement it would be alright.
PDR: Okay. Y’know the company you’re quitting is going to be short-staffed without you. They could use a part-timer.
PDR: Yeah. Alright, I guess I’ll do that.

So anyway, I have somehow been convinced to stick with my job for a few more months working two nights a week. I make it sound like I did it because I need the money above, and while I do need the money, it is really more that I don’t want to screw anyone over as I leave. I mean, I don’t care about the company as a whole, but there are people there whose lives I don’t want to make harder.

But also, the money is a part of my reason for accepting the part-time role. That makes me sad. Though, as of now, I’ve only agreed to go until the holidays are over this will bring me past that ten-year milestone I mentioned before. So I hate myself for that. I’m at some point where mitigating the monetary problems I’m soon to have seems like the wiser option, even if it partially deflates my reasoning for going back to school in the first place, which was to quit the job.

Ah well, nobody said I had to quit all at once. The end result should still be the same. I guess that is what matters.

Okay, now that I’ve officially given notice at work, I feel I can finally talk about this on the site: PDR is dropping out of job and getting a school.

Some time ago on this very website I wrote my thoughts on going back to school. To sum it up, it was basically: I hated school, but I’d go back if I could afford it. I still can not afford it, but… I’m going anyway?

This October would have marked my tenth year working of at the job I currently have (accounting for various promotions and such) and I really just don’t want to reach that milestone. I’ve not enjoyed the job, I’ve considered it a waste of large swaths of my life, in fact, but I stayed because I needed the money, you all know how it is. Well, my monetary situation isn’t improving, my debt remains, my attempt to get a roommate has proven useless toward money-getting, progress just isn’t being made, so what is the point?

Instead of continuing in this treading of water for another decade, I have decided to just dive in the opposite direction. I will weigh myself down with a student loan but, theoretically, I will be improving my life. Here’s hoping that this beats stagnancy for money.

I’m going for a degree in English. But the degree doesn’t mean much to me (and being a degree in English, it won’t mean much to other people either), what I want is the education. I want to get better at doing stuff I like, such as writing. In my previous schooling attempt I felt like it was the aiming for the degree that held me back. The main drawback, I feel, of going for a degree is that the school actually cares about how you get there. They have a whole list of classes they require you to take if you want that degree, even if you have no interest in those classes. But this seems mitigated for the English program. I have actually selected a handful of courses and, when I look over them, there isn’t one that makes me think “Ugh, I don’t want to go to that” based on the name alone (Things like Calculus or Physics would do that to me). I’ve got whatever actual English things I’m supposed to get, but I’ve also got a class on mythology, one on European history, and one on Astronomy. Obviously things may change as I see how the classes actually work, but for now, I’m kinda actually looking forward to this.

Let’s see how I feel about it a couple months from now. Whatever the case, I expect that I will be talking about my actual life on the site more often now that it contains something actually worth talking about. Let’s see how it goes!